Is this really true? Were you that far behind? How could I have missed this? How could I have failed you? I'm supposed to protect you. You are my perfect baby who's blue eyes always sparkle. Your never ending smile makes my heart melt. How did I fail you? I'm your mom. I'm a pediatric ICU nurse. How did I fail you?
Suddenly the cloud of anxiety hovered again. I couldn't squeeze you tight enough. One of them said you qualified for physical therapy and your case worker would be in touch with us. They left. I cried. I cried a lot. I was heartbroken for you. How did I fail you?